Processing Life

I came to the early morning conclusion that the only way I am going to make it through the next month and a half of my life is if I go to bed earlier. But the problem with going to bed earlier is that I have no idea how I'm going to get everything accomplished if I do that.

PTL - I didn't get the Kindergarten position I interviewed for!!!! I am so happy about this. I didn't have the best feeling about the whole thing, but decided that God would need to be the one to close the door, even after my interview went well. Lord knows I'm not a kindergarten teacher. I can work with the little ones at church or anywhere else. Just not as a classroom teacher. At least not right now.

Job applications have been keeping me busy. Too busy. I am thankful for understanding people in my life. I feel like I don't have time for anyone or anything but. I'm filling out an application for a 2nd grade opening at a Christian school in Littleton. I also hope to fill out a 3rd grade and 6th grade application for another Christian school here in Denver. However, lately I feel like I'm supposed to teach at a public school next year. I know that I would want to get back into a Christian school one day soon, but I think I would learn a lot from such an experience. It would be crushing not to be able to boldly profess my faith each day, but I'm sure I would learn to recognize other opportunities for ministry in the classroom and learn to appreciate the ones I have now moere. The other good thing about teaching at a public school would be that I'd be making nearly $10,000 more a year...money that would set me up for the future (one of the two masters I would love to get, or even some extra dough for one of those ym internship-jobs that still seem so appealing).

So much to process lately. Do I move, or do I stay here? Worse yet, am I ready to leave the people that I love here? Will I ever be ready?!? There are some things about this place that I know I will forever be attached to.

It is ten minutes before the students enter my room. I am not going to be the most energetic teacher today. I'm wiped out and it is time to start what has become my addiction, coffee guzzling. You know it is bad when you start getting headaches without the stuff...yikes!

Staff meeting after school today...progress reports (mid-term grades) need to be finished...and then the YL barn dance tonight. Sounds a little overwhelming right now. I can't wait for life to again feel "normal".