The Love of My Life

Wow! These past two weeks have been very good for me. I have found myself seeking Christ again in new ways. Along with that, I have had to re-examine some areas of my life which has not always been fun. I have some tough decisions to make this year...even in the next month...but I believe with all of my heart that God has already paved the way for my benefit. The promises of God stand true! Leadership camp was a breath of fresh air. Not because I was in the mountains, but because I was able to begin the process of release...God and I had a nice cry in the mountains. My heart was soft. Just what I needed. Since that time I have been "dating Jesus". God broke through all of the lies Satan has fed me these past couple of months. I am falling in love again and that is just what I WANT and where I want to be with Him!

I've had a number of discussions about "heroes" lately...what makes a good hero...ect. One of my heroes in the present-day Christian faith is Billy Graham. How awesome to be in your eighties with Parkinson's disease, a debilitating disease I know first hand (my grandpa died from it four years ago), and still out there boldly sharing the gospel of Christ. Talk about passion! How awesome it must be to be able to look back on your life and see God's faithFULLness...even in the areas of your faithLESSness! I cannot imagine anything greater than walking through life with Christ, proclaiming the gospel until he calls me home, no matter where I am or in what capacity I am able to do so. God is stronger than our struggles and temptations, greater than our abilities, more powerful than health or money or ANYTHING else. That is so cool!

Lesson I'm learning: God speaks best when I am still. This is so hard for me...
I like having an active social life. But I know that the past year of my life has not allowed for many quality quiet times with God. I have realized that it is not how many things I am involved in for Christ that matters, but how much I am daily in communion with him.

A simple reminder of this lesson came to me last night. Young Life. Sometimes I get home from work and am exhausted and my attitude coming to club is not so uplifting. Last night was one of those nights where I would have rather stayed home. So I prayed. And what do you know, God stepped in, gave me a ton of energy and I had a blast meeting some new kids and talking to old ones too. It was the best club so far this year! Lots of good relational ministry was happening with our team. Such a simple action of ASKING requires such a HUGE praise!